Sort of anniversary

[BestBuddy]

Although Nelson went to sleep for the final time on April 10 2009 it was Good Friday so today brings back the memories on the unofficial day.

I miss my special boy who was so smart and strong until the last year but know that he is now running free and is happy and healthy so I can smile through the tears.

Last night was also a strange sort of sad night for a really silly reason. Dr Steve who looked after Buddy and his cushings treatment has left the Uni hospital and is now at a private specialist practice a bit further away. When I read the news my heart sank and I felt sort of cheated, silly huh but for some reason even though Buddy was gone I felt the people who had impact on his life should have stayed where they were and continued on.

It sort of feels like I have lost a bit more of Buddy and I am not sure why.

Jenny

[mytil]

Oh Jen,

My hugs are coming your way. I remember last year on Good Friday Nelson passed on. I know what you mean about wanting people and places to stay the same, I do that a lot with the memories of Mytilda and it feels really upsetting. It is as if one more door closes that I do not want it to and cannot stop.

In loving memory of a very beautiful boy (Nelson (http://www.k9cushings.com/forum/album.php?albumid=21&pictureid=1246)) today and everyday.
Terry

[frijole]

Jen, I am sure Nelson is smiling down at you from above. Gone but never forgotten. Hugs, Kim

[sunimist]

Jen,

There are so many "little things" that didn't matter before (or just didn't pay attention to) that pains our heart from time to time now. I do know what you mean, and I don't suppose we will ever get beyond that. ((HUGS)) I dread Easter cause Misty always loved to hunt her Easter eggs. Will just have to have the memories of it this year, as is so with so many other happy memories, but is still painful.

Very sweet memories of handsome Nelson today and always, and special hugs and prayers for his wonderful mom.

Love....Shelba and Suni

[Harley PoMMom]

Dear Jenny,

Big hugs being sent your way from my heart and I hope that they bring you some comfort.

In memory of your dear, sweet Nelson.

With much love and (((hugs)))
Lori

[forscooter]

Jenny...

I am sending you huge hugs and thoughts of Nelson....I do know what you mean and I don't think it's silly at all. I think, for me anyway, is what happens is when something changes, no matter how big or how small, especially something that impacted our lives so much, is that it is a reminder that life moves on when part of us feels forever back in that time....I'm not sure if this makes sense or I am explaining it well...but it's like how can life move on or have something in particular change when something so important to us is lost...it is like losing a part of that person or baby all over again. And it just doesn't feel right bc that part of our heart will forever be in that time and place when they were by our side.

Sending you much love and peace today and every day....Beth

[bkdice]

I know "first" milestones are so hard. I'm sorry you're missing your boy so much still. He was a beautiful (just saw the pic). We get so used to caring for our babies, and when they are gone, it's a hard adjustment. Whether it's a vet the moves on, or a vet you don't see anymore because you don't need to. You wouldn't think it would affect you so, but it does. You're not nuts at all.

May you enjoy some happy memories of your boy that will help you get through the difficult times.

Bettina & Angel Niko

[labblab]

Hi Jen,

Thinking of you this weekend, and feeling very grateful to be able to help you honor Nelson, too. Like Bettina has said, the milestones are so especially hard, and especially when they are linked to a holiday or event that will never feel quite the same again.

And I don't think your feelings of sadness over Buddy's vet are odd at all. Every loss of a connection -- whether happy or sad -- is still a loss. I remember feeling so shocked when I first took Peg to the specialty practice where Barkis had been treated. Every visit there with Barkis was etched in my memory, and when I arrived and saw that the building had been added upon and totally changed...well, I just felt like crying. A time and a place that had been so important to me was gone forever.

On such a bittersweet day and weekend, I'm sending you many warm thoughts. And I'm picturing Nelson as the happy, healthy boy who will always live on in your heart and your memories.

Many (((hugs))) to you Jen, in celebration of the life and spirit of your sweet Nelson ~
Marianne

[Carol G]

Hi Jen,

I want you to know I'm thinking of you and I understand.

I do understand what you mean about the vet leaving. While I rationally know it shouldn't be, I do know I find a bit of comfort in taking Atty Cat to the same IM and Specialty Hospital I took Winnie and McGill. It is like a physical tie is still there. Grief is very hard to understand I think and it shows up in ways we would never imagine.

You are in my thoughts,

Carol and Atty Cat and always Winnie & McGill

[H-man]

You know Jen, the thing is with lovely Steve, he is so much happier at the new place and his eyes light up when he sees old friends like us. We talked about Buddy recently and his memory has certainly travelled there with Steve. Patsy's has as well and Im grateful that his heart is big enough to hold all of his furballs in there. But I am also glad that he's like a new man with a new lease on life and can do so much more where he is now without beauracratic rubbish.
Buddy and Nelson are around xxx Wendy

[BestBuddy]

Thanks for that Wendy.
I often used to wonder if Steve really knew who we were when we first started our visits. It soon became obvious that he was one of the special ones who really did know and care for his patients. I am really glad he is happy and would like to visit again but hopefully not with another sick dog!


Jenny