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labblab
12-10-2009, 06:31 AM
Hello, my friend. :o

Can it be possible? Yet another year has passed by, and where does the time go... But this morning I arise, and think so fondly of your sweet Maggie who ran to the Bridge six years ago today. As always, I will light a candle for her this evening, and honor her spirit with a smile and my prayer.

I hope that you are well, and that the girls are healthy and happy. And in my mind's eye, I am picturing Maggie and Barkis snuggled together at the Bridge -- along with all our other beloved pups who have joined them until we are joyfully reunited once again.

Here is Maggie's sweet face, for everyone to see:
http://www.k9cushings.com/forum/album.php?albumid=16&pictureid=65

Always in loving memory of Maggie, forever in your heart ~
Marianne

maggiesmomma
12-10-2009, 05:30 PM
Thank you my sweet friend!!!

The girls and I spent the day in Indianapolis....they being groomed and me shopping. It helped some to take my mind off of this date, which I will always remember. But now we are home, and I think how much my little girl would have loved it ,here on the lake. But....I also know that if she were still with me...I wouldn't have my darling Jolly and precocious little Annabel.

And...now the tears are flowing once again for my precious little Maggie. I like that image of she and Barkis together...I'll bet they are fast friends.

I only come here twice a year now, but I hope all of you know that I think of all of you and your sweet pups often....those still fighting this insidious disease and those who have gone before us. They will live on in our hearts forever

And for you, my dear friend Marianne...thank you for always remembering me and my little girl.

Love and hugs,
Jeanie

Roxee's Dad
12-10-2009, 06:40 PM
Hi Jeanie,
I didn't have the privilege of knowing you or Maggie but I wanted to thank you for being one of the early pioneers in our battle to understand and treat cushing's. Thank you and Marianne for reminding us that this battle has been fought before our arrival and thanks to the many whom have contributed to our continuing education on Cushing's.

You and Maggie are in my thoughts and prayers tonight.

maggiesmomma
12-10-2009, 10:14 PM
Thank you, John...that is very kind of you. I wish all of you only the best for your beloved "cush pups".

This is such a wonderful group.....

Best regards,
Jeanie

BestBuddy
12-11-2009, 12:49 AM
Jeanie,
Even as the years fly by the memories are still as strong. I am thinking of you today.
Jenny

maggiesmomma
12-11-2009, 03:26 PM
Thank you, Jenny...we appreciate the thoughts. I do have to admit, the pain does lessen some over the years, but is still really strong on these anniversaries.

Hugs,
Jeanie

labblab
12-10-2010, 06:33 AM
My dear Jeanie,

Here we are once more, my friend, another "10th" to remember and honor. The years fly by faster and faster, it seems to me. Filled with the antics of our girls. But also always filled with the memories of those earlier days and our "forever" loves ones.

So I'm writing again in honor of sweet Maggie. Your precious girl, whose spirit always remains safely tucked in your heart. I hope you've had a good year, Jeanie, and that you are doing well! I send you my best wishes and huge hugs from across the miles. And as always, I send you my loving thoughts in honor of your precious girl.

Marianne

maggiesmomma
12-10-2010, 09:44 AM
Thank you, my sweet friend!

I can't believe it has been another year. Although the hurt is less, this is always a hard day for me. I often think how much my Maggie would love it here, at the lake. Of course, Jolly with her sweetness and Annabel with her funny antics always help.

This has been a hard year for me, but I'm hoping things are looking up a bit.

I hope you and your "girls" are well and enjoying life together. We often think of you...not just on our "10ths", and we also think of all of the other furbabies that we knew from this site that have gone on before us. They were all so brave and loved by us all.

Take care, Marianne...and I hope you and your family have a lovely holiday.

Hugs to you and your "girls".

Love,
Jeanie

mytil
12-10-2010, 03:52 PM
((((((((((hugs)))))))) Jeanie
Terry

maggiesmomma
12-11-2010, 08:01 PM
Thank you,Terry....hugs to you, as well!

Jeanie

labblab
12-10-2011, 07:37 AM
Hello, my friend!

Jeanie, I hope you will be stopping by today, on this special day of remembrance. Once again -- can we believe it??? -- another year has passed by. Faster and faster and faster, they seem to go. But on days like today, all of a sudden the time drops away. And it is as though it was only yesterday that Maggie was still in your arms. I know that today she is filling your heart!

As always, I hope you and the girls are doing well. My girls have had some major ups and downs this year, but right now <knock on wood> everybody is doing good.

I lit my special candle last night for both Barkis and Maggie. I just know that they are best friends at The Bridge -- probably swapping stories about all the crazy things that you and I do :p. As always, Jeanie, I send you my warmest wishes on this special day, and everyday.

With many hugs, always in loving memory of your sweet girl.
Marianne

maggiesmomma
12-10-2011, 09:28 AM
Of course I'm here, my sweet friend and typing through my tears, as I read your sweet message.

I can't believe it, either. The time does go so quickly as we get older.

I think I told you in August, that I finally sold my other house after 2 years and 8 months of stress...so the girls and I a firmly planted here at the lake and trying to relax and go on with our new life. When I think of that house, of course I think of my sweet girl and the life we lived there. It was so hard at times...especially on December 10th. 2003, but she brought so much joy to my life at a time, when I really needed it.

I know you said Peg was having some problems....is she doing better? And what about Luna? What is going on with her? Please give them some gentle hugs from their "Aunt" Jeanie, who even though she has never met them....loves them and their mom so much.

My girls still keep me going....Jolly is still so sweet, although sometimes gets annoyed at her little sister, and Annabel is just a hoot always keeping me laughing with her funny little "grin" and her endless kissies.

I, too will light a candle tonight for my girl and Barkis...and they will see the light from "the Bridge".

Take care, my friend and have a wonderful holiday!

Love,
Jeanie

Cyn719
12-10-2011, 11:28 AM
Jeanie

I didnt know Maggie but I know you loved her very much and miss her dearly - but I do know you have many beautiful memories -

Sending prayers love and hugssssssss xo

maggiesmomma
12-10-2011, 05:37 PM
Thank you, Cindy. She was one very, very special little girl!

Hugs,
Jeanie

Harley PoMMom
12-10-2011, 07:53 PM
Jeanie,

Thinking of you and sweet Maggie and sending huge and loving hugs.

In loving memory of Maggie.

Love and hugs,
Lori

maggiesmomma
12-11-2011, 08:06 PM
Thank you, Lori...how sweet of you.

Hugs,
Jeanie

mytil
12-12-2011, 06:04 AM
Special (((hugs))) from me too Jeanie.

Terry

gpgscott
12-12-2011, 06:52 PM
Hi Jeanie,

I didn't know you or Maggie but am happy to know of you both.

Blessings to us all. Scott

clydetheboosmom
12-14-2011, 03:39 PM
And hugs from me, as well (((hugs)))

Lynne and Sampson, always with Angel Bailey and Angel Clyde

Cyn719
12-24-2011, 02:24 PM
Thinking of you --

Merry Christmas love and hugs xo

labblab
12-10-2012, 11:25 PM
Oh my dear friend, it has been a crazy day today and I am much later posting than I had intended! But here we are again, another year and another anniversary -- another opportunity to remember and honor sweet Maggie. How fast the days and months -- and years -- seem to fly by. Quicker and quicker for me, it seems.

I hope this day finds you and the girls all three well. Although I know you will never stop missing Maggie, and that this day will always remain so bittersweet for you.

Sending you so many hugs, and I am lighting my candle for our babies. Just as always.

Jeanie, I am sending you my love and warm wishes, today and everyday.
Marianne

cheydogger
12-11-2012, 09:49 AM
Hi Jeanie-

I am fairly new to this site, but I wanted to stop in and say hi. You posted you were in Indianapolis. I live in Broad Ripple. Small world.

Did you help develop this site? I got that feeling from reading Marianne's post. If so, thank you so much. This site is wonderful. I don't know what I would do without it.

Did you see a vet in the Indianapolis area? I have a general vet and IMS, but it is always good to know of others in case I ever need to change.

Sorry for the loss of your baby those years ago.

Hugs,

Ro and Chey

clydetheboosmom
12-11-2012, 11:16 AM
Jeanie -

Thinking of you!

XO

Lynne

maggiesmomma
12-11-2012, 08:53 PM
Oh, Marianne....my sweet friend....I was SO worried, when I didn't hear from you. I know you have had some issues with Peg and Luna, and I was hoping you just forgot and that nothing was wrong.

As always, it was a bittersweet day. I still light my tealight candle every night for my precious girl....and always will. I do still miss her so and wonder what my life would be like if she were still with me.

Jolly is fine, but Annabel is dealing with what we think (hope) is a bladder infection, so I had her back to the vet today. The antibiotic has cleared up her bladder based on an ultrasound, but she still has the symptoms of drinking and peeing excessively. We are waiting for more tests and hoping it is not something more sinister. She is only 4.....and I hope too young for some of the other possiblities.

Ro....I lived in Anderson, but now live in Nineveh....at Sweetwater Lake. It is south of Franklin and north of Columbus. At the time I had Maggie, I lived in Anderson. At the time, I took Maggie to Indianapolis Veterinary Specialists.....they have a new building now, but used to be at 82nd. Bash. Forgive my bluntness.....but HATE THEM!!!!! It was the most poorly run business I have ever seen and a total rip-off. So....I hope you are not going there.....I think they are now part of VCA....or something like that. I did have a good caring vet in Anderson who is now with Allisonville Animal hospital, I think....her name is Marcie Short.

Thank you Lyn for your kind words, too.

I hope all of your puppers are doing well. We were so limited by the medication, when my girl was sick.

Take care....all of you....and my dear Marianne....thank you for your friendship and always remembering my Maggie and me.

Love and hugs,
Jeanie

labblab
12-12-2012, 07:03 AM
Jeanie, I am so relieved you checked back yesterday! I was so worried I had posted so late on Monday that you would think I had forgotten. :o :(

But here we are again, all together. :) :)

I am really sorry to hear that Annabel is worrying you a bit. You know, if ever you would like to talk over what's going on, you can start a new thread about her on our "Everything Else" forum. I've done that with Peg. And even though she's not a Cushpup, I've gotten some great suggestions (and support) about all her other issues. But hopefully, Annabel will soon be back to normal and all the worries will be gone.

Otherwise wishing you a wonderful holiday season. Like me with Barkis, I'm sure you have so many special memories of Maggie that transport you back across the years. If only we could have them back for just one hour! But we'll carry those memories with us always, and cherish them.

Once again, it is so good to see you, Jeanie!

Love, Marianne

cheydogger
12-12-2012, 12:11 PM
Yes, I know about where you are. There are a few lakes down south, but I have definitely heard of Sweetwater.

Yikes......the IMS we see is part of VCA. It is now at 96th and Hague, right off of 69. My vet referred us there. The building is really nice, but I have only been going there for about a month now.

maggiesmomma
12-18-2012, 10:48 AM
Ro,

Feel free to e-mail me at maggiesmomma@msn.com

I believe all of the previous vets from Indianapolis Veterinary specialists are no longer there, and maybe not even the same owners, so perhaps things have improved. I know that our specialist Dr. Jennifer Brinson has moved on.

I would be happy to tell you my experiences, if you would like.

Hugs to you and your Chewy,
Jeanie

maggiesmomma
12-18-2012, 10:49 AM
Oops...meant Chey.....my eyes are not awake yet this morning:confused:

Hugs,
Jeanie

labblab
12-10-2013, 06:40 AM
My dear Jeanie...

Here we are together, on another one of our milestone mornings, and what a milestone this is :o. On this December 10th, it has been 10 years since our sweet Maggie earned her angel wings. And I know you still love her and miss her, just as though it was only yesterday. What a precious girl, now and forever!

I hope this December otherwise finds you and the girls well, though. I am especially hoping that little Annabel is now fit as a fiddle, with no worries for her mom!

My own little family is doing well, although the passing years continue to bring both joy and loss as new friendships continue to be made at the same time that other loved ones leave us. So much seems to change around us, and that is what makes our little traditions all the more special. So I am hoping you will be stopping by today! I will be lighting my candles and thinking of you and all the girls, and especially of Maggie and Barkis who are probably snuggled close together today -- and maybe sharing some stories of their own...

Many, many hugs to mark this decade of friendship :),
Marianne

maggiesmomma
12-12-2013, 03:04 PM
Ohhh....my dear, sweet friend...thank you so much for your lovely post. This year, I actually almost forgot....I remembered late that night, before I went to sleep, but I was having internet problems, so couldn't post. Yesterday, I ran errands...and now today, I have had a chance to check out the forum and saw your wonderful words.

I guess that proves that time does "help" to heal all wounds. I am amazed it has been 10 years. So much has changed for me..not necessarily gotten better....just changed. :(

Both of my girls are very healthy right now. I have them on a commercially prepared raw diet and some supplements that are really working to improve their health. Jolly is 10 now, and the vet was amazed, as she looks and acts like a 2 year old. Annabel is an "old soul" at age 5, and other than licking her feet is doing very well. She is my snuggle bunny and she thinks it is her job to protect Jolly & me.

I do miss my Maggie and still light the candle every night. She was part of a very different life than the one I lead now. Uh oh....I'm getting teary ...so I will say in closing...thank you again for always remembering us. I agree, I think Maggie and Barkis probably spent the day together discussing us.

I hope you and your girls and family are doing well...."see" you on the 10th. of August.

Love and hugs,
Jeanie

labblab
12-13-2013, 06:45 AM
Jeanie, it's so good to hear back from you! :) :)

And don't ever feel badly if "life" prevents you from getting back here on any 10th -- either yours or mine. Any day that we have the chance to talk with one another is a good day! Our memories remain with us every single day, so there is never just one right time to chat.

I think it is a very good thing that your life is rich and full right now, and especially that the girls are doing well. Neither Maggie nor Barkis would want us to stop the clock nor suspend our lives. And I know what you mean about feeling as though these ten years have changed so many things. Barkis was the very first puppy for my husband and me. Now I cannot imagine a life without a furbaby.

Anyway, it is so wonderful to hear from you again. And no matter on which day in the future ;), it will be so good to talk again!

Marianne

labblab
12-10-2014, 07:15 AM
Good morning, Jeanie! No matter which day you stop by once again, I want to make sure you will find my note awaiting you. Because believe it or not, here we are once again, honoring sweet Maggie. I swear, the years seem to fly by even more quickly now than ever before. A real merry-go-round, for sure.

I hope you and Jolly and Annabel are all doing good. It has been a rough year for me in many ways, with the deaths of two of my very best friends. Such a loss and such a wake-up call, all at the same time. Every day is a precious gift that can never be repeated. My little one, Luna, remains a ball of fire. She still has that darn limp every once in a while, but we also still don't know the cause so I pretty much just keep my head stuck in the sand over that :o. And my sweet Peg is definitely starting to show her age. Her muzzle is gray, and she struggles some to get up. She can only make it around the lake once now each morning. But each morning she is still rarin' to go and give it a try, so that is a blessing.

And sweet Spirit Barkis -- never separated from my heart. On Dec. 2, he would have been 19 years old were he still here on earth. You mentioned last year how much life has changed since we held Maggie and Barkis in our arms. You are so right. In so many ways, things were so different for me the evening we first brought our puppy boy home to share our lives. When I look at pictures, I almost don't recognize the "youngsters" we all were then. How can we have gotten so old in the meantime?? :eek:

But right now, especially around the holidays, most of all I remember all the joy Barkis brought to us, and the love we still share with his baby sisters. I will be lighting my candle again tonight, Jeanie, for Maggie and for Barkis. Our precious angels who changed our lives forever.

Love, Marianne

maggiesmomma
12-10-2014, 05:58 PM
Oh, my sweet, sweet friend....thank you, as always for remembering us.

I saw you message this morning, but have been trying to pull myself together enough to reply. I now have an "adult beverage" and will make an attempt.

Oh how sweet that Peg still enjoys her swims. I didn't realize that you lived on a lake, too. And darling Luna...bless her heart.

How fast the time as gone, and all day today....I have been wishing for that time back. I made so many mistakes and have so many regrets about my life, and I wish I could have a "do over".

I am having some health issues, and am going to have to leave the lake. It is just too much for me....mainly the hill and the steps, but also the maintenance. I have palmoplantar pustular psoriasis on my hands and my feet. The best way to describe it is that is like walking barefoot on broken glass. I am in constant pain, and there is no cure. I feel so badly for the girls, because I can't walk them anymore, and they just lay around the house all day.

I'm so sorry about the loss of your friends. My best friend Paula has stage 4 COPD and asthma, and I am so afraid for the future. We have been friends since high school.

Ok...enough of that...onward and upward.

Anyhoo.....thank you so much for your friendship. Are you on Facebook? If so....let me know and we can keep in touch more than twice a year. If so, send a friend request to Jeanie Clem.

We too, will light a candle for your boy tonight....I still ALWAYS light one for my Maggie girl.

Take care, sweet lady.....see you in August, if not sooner on FB.

Love,
Jeanie

labblab
12-11-2014, 06:56 AM
Hi Jeanie <waving wildly!>

No, I'm afraid I have resisted signing up on Facebook. I already spend so much time here and generally surfing the net that I can't afford to allow myself to get sucked into Facebook, too. I'm afraid my iPad would end up permanently attached to my arm! :o

But it is wonderful to hear from you, and this just makes our notes here all the more special. I am so deeply sorry to hear about your illness and your need to move away from the lake. No, unfortunately we do not actually live on a lake ourselves. There is just a little lake with a nice trail around it at the office park where I walk the dogs every day. So the girls know that trail backwards and forwards, just like Barkis did before them. If Luna had her druthers, she would race around it twice or even three times. But Peg is now pretty winded after just one go-round. So that's all we do these days, and I try to give Luna some extra play-time in the yard at home.

I can imagine how hard it must feel for you to leave your lake, and hope that you have a more comfortable alternative in mind. Sometimes change is a very good thing, but sometimes it sucks, and sometimes it is somewhere in between and you just have to go with the flow!

Anyway, it is so good to hear from you. Give the girls a big hug from Auntie Marianne, and I will see you when we are next together again. ;)

Sending many hugs to you, too, today and everyday!

maggiesmomma
08-12-2015, 11:30 AM
Hi,hi, hi Marianne....I am here...two days late and many dollars short...fun here nonetheless. I'm not really sure how to post here anymore...I think that we just continue this thread....

So, how are things in your life? I hope everyone is well....as the years go by, it is difficult to ask.

I am having a horrible summer. I told you about my best friend, Paula. She passed away on June 12th. Then, we had a tornado and flood in my area. I didn't have any damage, but the power was out for 41 hours. I thought I would go crazy. Then....my Jolly got sick. She rapidly lost weight and was down to 12 lbs., which is tiny. After many tests, Dr. Baker did a laparotomy on her....exploratory surgery...and took samples of her liver, spleen, intestines and lymph nodes. The diagnosis is that she has some "changes" in her liver and some IBS, which she thinks is caused by the liver problems...some toxicity in her liver. So, she is on a strict diet and some medication, and we hope that the liver will regenerate, as it is supposed to, and she will be better. She does feel better, but I think that is mostly because she is not doped up on pain pills from the surgery. The incision goes all the way from her "wee wee" to her breast. YIKES! I Dr. Baker says this is the best possible outcome we could have hoped for. So......

There is nothing new with me....still bad feet, but unable to move from the lake at this time. I just keep plugging along. My feet are some better, so I can at least get around more than before.

Ok, that is all the news I have....I have two puppies to feed.

Please know, we are thinking of you....my sweet friend....and your beautiful Barkis...running free with my Maggie at the Rainbow bridge.

Love,
Jeanie

labblab
08-12-2015, 01:32 PM
Hello my dear Jeanie!!!! I am so glad to see you again :), although I am so very sorry for the losses and rough stuff you are having to weather :o. It is very hard, sometimes, just to keep plugging along in the midst of so many dark days. But the doggies do keep us on track, don't they!? Sometimes routines can be a good thing, because they keep us going on days that we'd otherwise wish to spend in bed with the covers pulled over our heads (or at least, that's the way it is with me!).

It's funny, but this is the first year that I have not posted a note here myself right on the exact day of Barkis' anniversary. Last year marked our ten year anniversary, and somehow since then the exact day does not seem to hold the same power over me as it did before. Starting at the end of July and the beginning of August, I am still transported back in time and memory, but awakening this year on the 10th, the rawness of earlier times had finally ebbed. I thought of him with love and gratitude, and felt his presence alongside me quite strongly as I walked at the lake and puttered around our house. It was as though he had come to join me, especially, on that day. But for the first time, the day actually was filled much more with comfort than with pain, and with my smiles at all the joyful times we had spent together.

I am so sorry about Paula and also Jolly's illness. Our sweet Peg will turn 11 in about two weeks (she was born right after Barkis died), and sadly, she has aged terribly just since the first of the year. Her hips are very bad, and I think these many years of phenobarb for her seizures may finally be slowing her down. She can no longer do stairs or jump into the car, so my walks with her are limited to short social jaunts in the neighborhood where she meets and greets all her friends. Luna will be turning 7 around the same time, and she is still a fireball of energy. We are having problems with a chronic skin infection with her, though, and we are not sure about the cause. But I am trying to learn not to borrow trouble in advance. So we will just see what develops.

Anyway, it warms my heart to hear from you! Thank you so much for checking in again, and I will be doing the same in December. ;)

Sending so many hugs across the miles,
Marianne

maggiesmomma
08-12-2015, 02:19 PM
Oh Marianne....I am SO glad you found my post!

Yes, my girls do keep me going on those dark days. I have to get up to take care of them, although I think they would be just as happy to stay in bed...I know that Annabel would. A quick "potty" and a little breakfast, and she is ready to sleep all day.

Paula was a big part of the reason for my moving down here. I had hoped that after she retired, we would do some traveling, have some fun and grow old together. She never got to have any fun....I know she is in a better place, where she can breathe, but I am pretty lost right now....not sure what the future holds and feeling so alone. :( Ok...enough of my whining....

I am so sorry that Peg is aging....11 is a good age for a Lab, though...and sweet Luna....so glad she is still having fun. How is your health...and how about your husband?

I see that this group now has a facebook page. Who is the administrator of that? It doesn't look to be very active, but maybe it is still pretty new.

Well, dear friend....I must go and try to do something constructive today...or....maybe not. LOL!

Have a good one....

Love and hugs,
Jeanie

labblab
08-12-2015, 03:46 PM
I am just so sorry about Paula. I am still trying to get used to living in a world without my two good friends who passed away two years ago now, too. They were really my best friends here, and the hole they've left behind is not one that can be filled. I try to push myself out there to meet new people, but it is hard for me to do so...:o

Hubby and I are hanging in there healthwise, although we do have a lot more complaints re: sore joints and tired muscles and crappy vision. Aging sucks!!~!

As for the group's Facebook page, it is not intended to be an interactive site but rather it is an introduction to the forums here. We hope that people who see the Facebook page will come and join in the active discussion here. ;)

OK, my friend, once again it is great to see you. Take good care until we talk again!

maggiesmomma
10-31-2015, 02:55 PM
Hi Marianne,

I'll bet you are surprised to see me, but I knew that I had to tell you....I lost my Jolly 2 weeks ago, today. I am breaking down right now, so can't say much....but Dr. Baker gave up on us (I guess she didn't like all of my questions) and referred us to a specialist in Indianapolis. Jolly got very bad on Friday, and Dr. Baker refused to see her. I was hoping I could just get her through the weekend...our appointment was on Monday, but Saturday night, she could not stand, and I think she was having seizures. I called our old vet, who has a doctor on call after hours, and he met me in Columbus, Indiana and ended my Jolly's suffering. She was seizing, and I don't think she could see or hear me, and I think she was bleeding internally. It was horrible!!! At least she was at home and not all alone in an emergency hospital 50 miles away. That is the one thing that I did do right....but if Dr. Baker had seen her...maybe they could have stabilized her....I don't know...I just know that she is gone and I am devastated. I had spent thousands of dollars, and she just got sicker and sicker.

That's all I can say right now....I thought that you would want to know.

Big hugs to you and your babies...hold them close.

Love,
Jeanie

Harley PoMMom
10-31-2015, 05:50 PM
Oh Jeanie,

I am so terribly sorry for your loss and my heart goes out to you. We are definitely here for you so please, when ever you want, you come back and talk with us.

Sending huge hugs and love,

With Heartfelt Sympathy, Lori

maggiesmomma
10-31-2015, 10:24 PM
Thank you, Lori. Tonight was hard, as it has only been two weeks....and those last horrible hours are haunting me. My little girl did not deserve to suffer, and she did. My heart aches.....

Jeanie

labblab
11-01-2015, 06:55 AM
Oh Jeanie! I am so sorry I was not here yesterday, and I am beyond sorry about sweet little Jolly! It did sound like something worrisome was going on back in August, but I was so hoping that it could be sorted out. I know you were, too. I can only imagine how broken-hearted you are feeling, and doubly so upon feeling so abandoned by Dr. Baker. I have to guess that she must have been feeling pretty helpless herself if she couldn't figure things out, and maybe ended up acting pretty defensive as a result. But what a terrible shame that she let you down when you needed her most.

And it's you who are suffering as a result, and my heart reaches out to you across the miles. I am so grateful you've come here to tell us, and I'm so grateful that Lori was here for you yesterday. No matter how many years pass, we remain your family here, Jeanie. I wish I had words to ease your pain, my friend. I know you must wonder how many times your heart can break and you still can go on. But Annabel needs her mom, Jeanie. And Maggie and Barkis took Jolly under their care the instant she made her passage. You are not alone, nor is precious Jolly.

Whatever it was that went wrong for her, it sounds as though it was catastrophic and it was not really a question of "if," but rather of "when." You are right that if there is any shred of comfort to be found, it's that she remained safely cradled in your arms. But I hope that truly will remain a comfort to you in the days to come. Jeanie, you know our special prayer. Let us say it together. You held Jolly in your arms for as long as you could. Now you will hold her in your heart forever. Forever. May your heart now find peace and comfort along with Jolly's precious spirit.

Jeanie, you come back any time to talk, OK? We are right here by your side.

With love, always.
Marianne

Squirt's Mom
11-01-2015, 07:20 AM
Jeanie, I am so sorry to hear about your sweet Jolly. Please don't beat yourself up - you did the best you could under the circumstances and your sweet girl knows that.

Our thoughts and prayers are with you, our deepest sympathies for you,
Leslie, Trinket, Brick, Sophie, Fox, Redd, and all our Angels

labblab
11-01-2015, 08:02 AM
Hi Jeanie, it's me again! Just wanted to tell you that Jolly has now been added to our special 2015 memorial thread as an honorary Cushpup :o. As you know, her big sister Maggie is on our very first "Remembering" thread, and we know she is carefully watching over her baby sister now. Here is Jolly's thread (and I will talk with you about adding a photo a little later):

http://www.k9cushings.com/forum/showthread.php?t=6879

Also, here is a link to a post that tells you about our special candle-lighting page, as well:

http://www.k9cushings.com/forum/showthread.php?t=517

We are all here with you, Jeanie. Don't ever forget that.

molly muffin
11-02-2015, 08:03 PM
I am so sorry to read about your sweet Jolly. :( What a horrible year you have had. I know your heart is just broken.
I understand that you and I don't know each other (so to speak :) ) but I have followed along for years with you and Marianne. (if that makes any sense)
My sincerest condolences.

labblab
11-03-2015, 06:50 AM
Thinking about you this morning, my friend, and sending you many hugs.

Allison
11-15-2015, 01:14 PM
Jeanie, hi.

Hugs from one pet owner to another. I'm fairly new here. My husband and I lost our silky terrier last May after several months of sickness.

Sorry for your horrible summer. My heart goes out to you in your recent loss of Jolly.

labblab
12-04-2015, 07:40 AM
Hello again, my friend. I did not want to wait until the 10th to write back again, because I can well imagine how hard all these December days are for you. The double loss of Jolly along with Maggie's anniversary...oh, how your heart must be aching. You remain in my thoughts and in my heart, as do your precious girls. I hope you will return to us so that we can do our best to support you, Jeanie.

Thinking of you all, and sending many hugs across the miles.
Marianne

labblab
12-10-2015, 06:25 AM
Now it is the morning of the 10th, and I hope you will come back to us, Jeanie, on this day of remembrance for sweet Maggie. I will be lighting three candles today, for Maggie, Jolly, and my bestest boy. Three precious spirits who are now all together. And we are here together for you, Jeanie.

Hugs, hugs, and more hugs ~
Marianne

maggiesmomma
12-10-2015, 11:10 AM
Hello my sweet friend....and all of my other "new" and "old" friends. I am here and shedding double tears today. Still mired in my grief over losing my Jolly, a few days ago, I almost forgot that this day was coming up. But here it is and here am I and here are you lovely friends.

I had requested Jolly's records from Dr. Baker...they e-mailed them to me, and I have spent the morning reading them. I still don't understand, why my baby girl had to die. But, as I said before...the hardest part was that she had to suffer. Maggie and Hattie did not really suffer, and their passing was peaceful. That was not the case with my Jolly...she suffered terribly and the last few hours were horrible.

Ok....I'm sorry...this is Maggie's day, and I need to remember her. She was so, so special. I still light her tealight every night, and have now added one for Jolly, too.

Marianne...I hope your girls are doing well...and family.

I went to my friends, Mark and Becky's for Thanksgiving. It was lovely. I always spent holidays with Paula, so it was hard...but nice. Unbelievably, my estranged sister had also invited me. I know that she just feels sorry for me...but it is a start. So....Annabel and I are going there for Christmas. It will be awkward, but as I said...a start.

Well, my friends...I need to get on with my day. Thank you all, so much for remembering us, and I will try to come on here more often.

And, Marianne....my sweet, sweet friend....thank you, as always for your love and support.

Love and hugs,
Jeanie and Annabel
Maggie, Hattie and Jolly.....pieces of my heart at Rainbow bridge

labblab
12-10-2016, 08:21 AM
My dear Jeanie,

Yet another December rolls around! It seems as though the months fly by in a blur for me these days. But here we are, with the dawning of another "10th" and the chance to honor all our Rainbow Bridgebabies with love. Upon adding little Jolly and my big Peg to the heavenly pack, we know there is quite a group assembled there now. Each and every one loved forever!

I hope you and Annabel are doing well, and that you've found warm homes and warm hearts to welcome you for the holidays. We are hanging in there ourselves, although these are our first holidays without Peg and that surely does change things a great deal for us all.

OK, I'll close for now. But as always, I am sending many hugs across the miles and my candles will be lit tonight for all our precious babies.

Love, Marianne

maggiesmomma
12-10-2016, 10:39 AM
My dear friend,

Thank you again for helping my sweet Maggie live on in our hearts. A memory came up on Facebook today with her picture.

I debated, whether to come here today, but I am glad I did. I feel you pain...having the first Christmas without your beloved Peg. The "firsts" are always the hardest, although I still find every year very difficult.

Unfortunately, my life has not gotten any easier. Annabel had a tumor in her mouth, that was wrapped around her jawbone. It grew very fast, so we quickly had it removed. It was even worse, than first thought and had completely obliterated the jawbone, so Dr. Hennessy had to take ore, than he thought he would. He removed the whole lower left jawbone and teeth on the left and also the front. Her little tongue hangs out all of the time....and I was shocked at first....but it only took a few seconds to see that my bright, sweet little girl was still the same...she just looked a little different.

The tumor was cancerous....a squamous cell carcinoma, but the pathology showed that the margins were good, and it only has a 5 to 10% of recurrence. So, we are hoping that she is and remains cancer free.

She can no longer have treats or toys or ice cubes (her favorites), and I puree her food in the food processor.....as she can no longer chew. That's ok....I just feel sorry that she can't have treats....she pretty much inhaled them without chewing, anyway. She still eats well. :) She is such a strong, brave little girl!

So, sweet friend....that is my news. We are going to my sister's for Christmas. We did not go Thanksgiving....I thought it would be too much for Annabel....but I made a nice little dinner for myself.

I need to go feed my baby now.....thanks again for thinking of us. I hope you and your family and sweet Luna have a wonderful Christmas.

Love,
Jeanie

labblab
12-11-2016, 09:17 AM
Oh Jeanie, it's so good to hear back from you although I'm so sorry to hear about Annabel's surgery! That is so good that the chance for a recurrence is so low, though, and I'll surely hope that remains the case. When you think of all the things that can go physically wrong with both us and our pets, it's really a miracle that things go right even as often as they do. You are such a good Momma, and I bet she loves her special puréed food, even though it's different than before.

Speaking of different, we'll be putting up our Christmas tree today and it will feel very different without Peg here to "help" us. Even when she wasn't actively trying to cause mischief with the ornaments, she was so big and her wagging tail so powerful that we were always just one step away from seeing them torn off the tree and hurled across the room! But, of course, I'd take a broken ornament any day if I could trade it for having her back again.

Anyway, it's so good to see you and please continue to take good care throughout the new year, my friend.

labblab
12-09-2017, 05:16 PM
Hello Jeanie,

I decided to stop by this evening, on the eve of your anniversary day. This way, should you stop by at any time tomorrow, you’ll find this note already awaiting you. Another year behind us. It seems as though I become tangled deeper and deeper in my own memories with each passing year. How about you? I hope this past year has brought you reasons to make some happy memories, and I especially hope that little Annabelle is still safely there, right beside you.

Luna brings joy to my own life, although I still miss Peg so much. This will be our second Christmas without her, and I still think of her and miss her every single day. I know you miss your precious girls, too, and always will.

Anyway, my friend, I just wanted to stop by and give you a big “virtual” hug. And to light a candle, as always, for our dear ones departed.

Take care, Jeanie, and my best wishes to you as always,
Marianne

maggiesmomma
12-11-2017, 11:32 AM
ACK! I posted a long reply, but it has disappeared!!! I will be back later to try again.

Jeanie

maggiesmomma
12-11-2017, 12:50 PM
Ok, so I will try again. :)

Hello my sweet friend, Marianne and all the rest of you sweet people!

I was unable to come here on your "10th." this year, Marianne....as my computer had blown up. I did think of you and your sweet Barkis, though.

I'm so happy you stopped by today to remember my Maggie, and I guess we include my precious Jolly, now.

Annabel is fine...right by my side and taking care of me. She is a strong, brave little girl, and I couldn't make it without her.

My luck continues to be bad. I was diagnosed with type 2 diabetes in June, and I am having a hard time. My numbers are down, and I am feeling better, but I really don't want to eat, and that is not good. I just don't find any joy in eating anymore. It's a good thing I got away from the lake, when I did.....but now, I know why I felt so bad.

We were supposed to go to my sister's for Thanksgiving, but I didn't feel good enough, and I can't drive on the interstates....still too dizzy and shaky. I HATE that I can't do the things, I used to do. Oh well, enough about me.

I do have to say, this has also been a very hard year. I lost 6 friends this year, and several pups of friends. Four of my friends had cancer, one died from a horrible mistake in the hospital, and the other was MURDERED. She lived in England and was the founder of one of my Westie groups. Horrible!

Ok, again....enough about me woes.

I'm glad you silly Luna is still making your days fun and interesting. If only we could all be together again....just for one day!

Oops ....gotta go....tears are welling up.

Thanks again, my sweet friend. Have a lovely holiday!

Love,
Jeanie

labblab
12-12-2017, 09:23 AM
Jeanie, it’s so good to see you back here! I will come back later and add a better reply, but just wanted you to know that I’d seen your reply ;-)!

Marianne