I thought I would post this as I lost Pebbles 10/22/08. She is missed terribly!!!! So here it is. I imagine this will bring tears to your eyes as it does to me even worse!!
It took so long for me to write I started writing this many many times Tears would stream down my eyes and I just couldn't finish it. They are streaming now but I know that I have to do this for Pebbles
I was fortunate enough to have Pebbles for 10 1/2 years. She was a laid back dog Only barking a people she didn't like. Huskies don't generally bark they howl. She loved to go camping with us. She loved to swim Couldn't get her out of the water. She swam like a fish. I named her from the cartoon The Flintstones.I had found her mother "Snowy" in the front of my house. Snowy had seven pups I birthed all seven. Pebbles came out first She was blue. We quickly rubbed her chest and her color changed, I decided to keep her as I was worried about her being sick and kept her sister Jasmine. They were inseparable.We then added more to the clan and ended up with 6 dogs ,3 cats and a bird!
I miss her really badly.I miss the howls of joy,the belly rubs that she loved. I miss all of the time I freaked because she ate something she wasn't supposed to. I miss the home testing,the curves, feeding her and just watching her feel so much better in the past year or so than she ever did..
I would almost cry when she would chase a squirrel and trot around the yard like she was all that. In my eyes she WAS ALL THAT. We went on our 6:30 am walks. God she loved to walk and wait for the pieces of milkbones that I would give her. Her head would turn as she walked. She knew that once we passed a certain house that there were no more pieces and that she would have to strut her stuff. I still can't walk down those streets. It hurts too bad.
I miss the nights when I would put her in front of a fan in my bedroom because she liked the cool air. I ( every night) would kiss her on the nose and lips. I would say " Night Night I love you" This was a ritual that I did over and over again As a matter of fact all the dogs got my kisses and were told the same. I read all of these posts from you all. I wish Pebbles was here. I wish I could inject her!! I feel for ya'll that one day you will be in my shoes. I don't wish this on any of you.
Pebbles was a sweet dog. She was my life as I had to take care of her. It was my duty to give her the best possible care in the world. To take her to the finest Dr's whom I owe a lot to. All of those e mails to Dr Stone and Dr Bostrom atTexas A & M. I cannot erase them.It is knowledge that I have gained.
Trying to manage hypothyroidism,cushings and diabetes was hard. I did what any person that truly loved their animal would do. I did it I gave it 150% of my life and time. I did it for my Sweet Pebbles.Would do it again in a heartbeat. People would say I was nuts to spend all that money on her Nuts to have all of the testing. "Put her down they would say" She wasn't just a dog she was MY DOG!!! A dog that was deserving to have a better quality of life A dog that wasn't ready to die at first diagnosis.. I am so honored to have her in my life. I know that I did the right thing in putting her to rest. I did this because I loved her. She knew that. It was the hardest thing I ever have done.Our bond was special It was strong . I could not let her suffer any longer. The macro adenoma was large. I hope that she is in heaven and that she is happy. I hope that she knows how special she really was and how much her Mommy loved her. I am honored to have sacrificed a part of my life for her. Pebbles I say this one more time " Night Night I love you"
Mommy