Re: Goodbye Abby.
After Squirt had to go, I would see her all over the place, hear her coming down the hall or moving around in the closet where she liked to lay. At first, it made me hurt all over when that happened and it happened often. Then it brought me a deep peace and comfort when I realized I wasn't seeing her as she was her last year in this life, I was seeing her as she is now - strong, full of energy and mischief again, her tail held high, a light dancing in her eye, her steps light and prancing. So I knew without question she was well and oh so much better than when she left. Today, over a year later, I rarely see her or hear her any more and I miss that terribly. Sometimes she comes when I am really low or when I ask her to go somewhere with me but I know she understands her mom is healing, slow but sure, and mom no longer needs to be reminded so often of what a glorious life she has today. Don't get me wrong - I still cry every day missing her and at times would give everything I am to hold her one more time.
Meg, we will both get that wish one of these days - we WILL get to hold our baby girls again. But not yet. We both have a job to do here in this life first. You may not know yet what that job is for you but you will learn in time. Abby may even help show you.
Hugs,
Leslie
"May you know that absence is full of tender presence and that nothing is ever lost or forgotten." John O'Donahue, "Eternal Echoes"
Death is not a changing of worlds as most imagine, as much as the walls of this world infinitely expanding.