my heart goes out to you. I am so sorry for your loss. Keep writing and let it out. It is like part of you dies with them. I lost my baby Sept 9,2012. He died in my arms. I still cry and miss him every day. Once they are in your heart, they never leave. We are here for you.
Hugs and love Sonja and Angel Apollo.
feel what you need to feel.
go to a support lose group if you can.